Barry II - Depression

My depression is killing me
I can't live with myself
Can't fight these demons and monsters no more
I am begging you for help

I just wanna sleep
Cause when i'm awake, it's the pain in my heart that is killin' me
Overthinking's a drug that is drillin' these
Obtrusive thoughts and emotions that i can't control and should be not be responsible for
That i am trying to leave at my door
And i swore to my therapist, told her that i'll be okay
But i'm not, and i knew it, was standing there lying right to her face
So i lay in my bed, as my head hits the pillow
I'm mentally drainеd, battery at zero
As i ask my enеmy... brain
Should we continue?
I'm praying to every god, allow me to sleep
I've tried counting sheep
I've steadied my breath, but i keep
Remembering me
The person that i hate the most, so please
Help
Please

My depression is killing me
I can't live with myself
Can't fight these demons and monsters no more
I am begging you for help
I just wanna know, is anyone out there alive that is feeling the same
That wakes up ashamed
That doesn't disclose all their pain
How do you deal with it, how do you cope?
Cause i am anxiety's gigolo, now she is making me buy her some rope
Do you focus on breathing? or are you just always distracting your mind?
Is there anyone out there relating who managed to live and is loving their life
I think it is time
I'm selling what's left of my soul to the devil and asking for fame in exchange
Id'ing the mike (mic) as i'm passing the rock cause i haven't got many plays left on the page
I'm giving my life, to the evilest guy so that others can always be spared
Cause i could not think, of a worse of a thing than a teenager being this scared
I'm hoping that god can forgive me, this pain that i'm feeling is brutal, it's way too intense
But i know she will, cause she burdened me with it that bitch she was charging me rent
To live in my head
Not dollars but cents (sense)
I'm sorry, but i think that i would be happier dead

My depression is killing me
I can't live with myself
Can't fight these demons and monsters no more
I am begging you for help

I want this pain to end, i want it all to fade away
I want to end it all, give me a reason i should stay
I think i'm done with life, gave it my hardest try
Everything i've ever done, simply's not good enough
I know what you will say, the sun shines after rain
But i'm out here stuck in a storm, and when it rains it pours
Is anybody out there? do you know what i'm going through?
Can anybody save me, from doing something irreversible... cause
My depression is killing me
I can't live with myself
Can't fight these demons and monsters no more
I am begging you for help
Please