Keep it Together - Monuments

I look up at night
Grounded by the planes in the sky
If i fly westward to them
Will i ever wanna go back home again?

Birdsong bleeding through my headphones
This time i think i’ll stay outside
Writing notes and nobody knows
How much it aches inside
The lighting in the airport feels so good
If i could come back here every week, you know i would
Spent two years sitting in my room
The only good thing about that was learning from you

Fridge magnet from golden gate
Even though i never went
You’re crying out on the street
Even though i never meant to hurt you

In the gift shop, find a monument
In the gift shop, buy a magnet

Monuments pinned to the door
Of all the places i’ve been before
Fridge magnet from sunny state
I’ve gotta write about this before it fades away
You don’t know how it feels
Crying on the flight back home, i remember
You don’t know how it feels
Crying on the flight back home, i remember

(in the gift shop, find a monument
In the gift shop, buy a magnet)
(i wanna go back, will you have me back?
I’ve gotta go back, will you take me back?)

I wanna go back, will you have me back?
I’ve gotta go back, will you take me back?

I liked you better when you thought i was a good person
I’m smashing my head against my desk
Destroy all the shame that lives inside of my bad brain
Cos sometimes i like it here

(dig through the trash, i didn’t mean to hold so tight
Dig through the trash, maybe someday i’ll get it right)

Sit at the departure gate as i feel it leave me
Everything that tethered me these past two years
Was this a grave mistake or could you believe me?
I’m laying down a path for the next two years
(go to the store, i wanna be so close to you
I can’t go to the store, i wish it was like how it was before)

I don’t know where i end and it begins
Take it slow
So i can settle in
Can this be a five year plan?
I can’t leave you in this hallway
No one understands
I wish it was like how it was before

Go to the store
I wanna be so close to you
I can’t go to the store
I wish it was like how it was before

I don’t mind how i’m living
Take it day by day
The day is almost over but at least i’m awake
It shouldn’t scare me
That i’m still in love with that moment