​daywatch - Softlock

Tired of thinking up bars in my room that don't make sense
Sometimes don't compute and i feel like i’m not cut out for this
Sometimes
And i remember when they used to come up to me crazy, like
They had no respect for me but, i got ahead
In my own little way, in my own little space
In my head

And most don't even care about the consequence, i'm tryna guide
People like me to the light but only if they want to go
Cus' whеn you fine with your situation, you gon' stay froze
Don't matter how many loving pеople want you to be brave
I don't think you know how long it took too pull me out the grave
Took me twelve long years just to figure out i'm hazed
Took me four more years for my parents to relate
Took me some more overthinking just to clear the slate

Oh my god, i'm sick to core
Y'know that it's bad when the hatred is decor
I think that i used it as protection
I'm older now and i don't seem to get the message

I guess i hate when everything gets on my nerves and i can't get out
Of my head and i get real awkward and i can't get the words out my mouth
I really hate how i talk so i put an impression on my sound
My friends say it's all in my head so i guess that i'm just full of doubt
I guess i hate when everything gets on my nerves and i can't get out
Of my head and i get real awkward-
Sometimes i wish all four of my friends were packed in my skin
He wishes to be himself but, i wish i could be like him

Oh, i think i'm done for the night
Woah, feeling like i'm soft-locked
Beat boys say it's beat block
But spitters say it's writers block
Big boy in a corner
Big boy in a corner

But i still try

Could you sometimes think about us?
Sometimes think about love?
Cus' i need your company
Would you do it for me?
I can't

Aometimes think about us
I sometimes think about love and
It feels so dumb to me
I look in the mirror and fantasize about who i wanna be

Dumb mic'd up wannabe
I wanna be seen
I wanna be me
I wanna find peace
Imma let life do the finding