WeevilDoing - Chocolate-Box Girl

To call your desires "childish" is an understatement
You told me i was special, that i was one in a million
I was just one in four, according to the statistics

How did it feel to touch a body that fit adolescent clothes?
Did you know i was scared to tell, that nobody would know?
Did i bring it upon myself
Was it my fault for existing?

If it's not real
It's not a warning sign
It's all fictional, right?

You picked me out and ate me up
I thought that it was love
How young and dumb i was
Another victim of
Your opportunistic lust
Hands reaching out to touch
An unspoken disgust
Too soon to grow up

(put in a heart-shaped plastic box covered up with a lid)
(with people like me who know the horrible shit you did)
It couldn't have been love, that's true
But if it isn't, what was it?
The way you savored me got you off in the moment
Now here i am, so many years later, heart racing, sleepless
Did the means meet the end, was it carefully calculated?
An innocence so valuable, you bared your teeth and ate it
All of the times i wish i said no and all of the times i tried
Left wondering if you'd even stop if i put up a fight
For you, it was just a final course, a brief moment in time
For me, it's a weight i'll have to carry my entire life

It's all pretend
It's not a problem, right?
That's all it took to bite
I let you reel in the line
I'm all you fantasized
Desires come to life

You picked me out and ate me up
I thought that it was love
How young and dumb i was
Another victim of
Your opportunistic lust
Hands reaching out to touch
An unspoken disgust
Too soon to grow up

You picked me out and promised me
That i was all you'd need
How stupid and naïve
Did i have to be?
Another night i spend in grief
I see you in my dreams
I hear the way you breathe
Too late to be free
Say it's not real
The role i was assigned
The hunger in your eyes
The canary in the mine
It was a dove this time;
A worthy sacrifice

You picked me, out of everyone
You did it all for what?
Some twisted kind of "fun?"
I'll never get you
My god, who else did you corrupt?
You ruin all you touch
Betray all those you trust
(i fucking hate your guts.)

You picked me out and ate me up
I thought that it was love
How young and dumb i was
Another victim of
Your opportunistic lust
Hands reaching out to touch
An unspoken disgust
Too soon to grow up

You made me think that it was love
Look at the person i've become