MidKnyte - NUMB

★ verse 1 ★
If you wanna be with me
Just know there’s some stuff you gotta sacrifice
My heart is dark, and cold like stagnant ice
And no, to be bold, it don’t suffice because it’s not right
Here’s my advice
I’m obsessive and you’re my possession
Aggression i show if you don’t give re-assurance
Depression i show but me, i assure that i deserve it
Mi amor, i just want you to endure it
I’m on the verge of discourage
You’re my number one priority
Tired observably
But dire majority of the time i was questionin’ your authority
Thought i was gonna be meliority but formally i just cornally
Felt the walls closin’ in
Next time i’ll just be better off writin’ a song then gettin’ along
Sorry that i’m not good enough for you or up to your standards
I dander with a lantern and wonder the next time i’ll feel a thunder from you
Or feel like i’m under a spell while i fell for you, but it takes two to say it and make it true
Those three words that end with “you”
But i think you say hi backwards when you think of me
That’s the rest of me, sometimes you get the best of me
But i thought you was destiny
I go rest asleep to know, that no, i don’t show pain in my eyes
Uh, reign or demise
Same thing that i despise
I want attention you can feel the tension is tensin’ up and twitchin’
Our vibe isn’t the same, it changed the way we communicate
After you mutilate my feelings i guess it wasn’t feelin’ it wait
But after the pent up anger accumulates, i knew i shouldn’t have stay
After the impending doom today builds up the fumin’ rage, what?

★ chorus ★
Numb in the outside
Numb in the inside
Numb from the pain that i hide
Numb from the lies that i fight
Numb from the tears i cry
I'm numb in the outside
Numb in the inside
Numb from the pain that i hide
Numb from the lies that i fight
Numb from the tears i cry
I try

★ verse 2 ★
To be better or worse is like a curse within this verse
I’m tryna mentally search for a cure within this earth
Will i be in a hearse before i can burst?
Always questionin’ what happens for the next act
I’m crazy or maybe i’m confessin’ again to my ex
Past me up again like this life won’t last
Alway’s wonderin’ will i be “done” again
Or if i’ll ever get to that one question to ask
Her talkin’ to me is a task
Always walkin’ out on me so fast
I’m a master of diaster and no it’s not the evil kind
It’s the loveable/lethal signs
The one to make you even blind
Strugglin’ to see if i had the ability to use a guillotine
Like it’s the medieval times
And every single rhyme is another one to count in the book
Preachin’ to get off the hook like they the people to get shook
Reachin’ different heights every try to night tryna find a new high
They’re the crooks and they don’t overtook the possibility of even gettin’ overlooked
Like “truly, i say to you, i do not know you.”
A bad misrepresentation of amazin’
Doesn’t matter if you seen grace or had faith
It matters if you go through with what you say everyday
I know if i just try and commit that
I don’t wanna die and commit
Realtionships or “it.”
Don’t matter which one it is
It’s both so you can consider this fire lit
So i won't fall in another hole like a pit
Tired of being in this rut
Tired of being passed up by love
Because i can’t get myself together
My mental is severed i swear i’m tryna get better
Sippin’ down the guilt like a beverage
No leverage i cut down hedges
I start slicing and dicing like potato wedges
No child support
Like what the tomato said is
To talk to god more
I don’t even know where my head is
Not in the clouds because lord knows if i get high
That i’ll od on codeine and start loathin’ and hopin’ to die
I’m zonin’ and floatin’, start loadin’ the mags up while i cry
To be better i try
But in the end i end up failin’ and start wailin’ and lie

★ chorus ★
Numb in the outside
Numb in the inside
Numb from the pain that i hide
Numb from the lies that i fight
Numb from the tears i cry
I'm numb in the outside
Numb in the inside
Numb from the pain that i hide
Numb from the lies that i fight
Numb from the tears i cry

★ bridge ★
I try to escape but sometimes
I can’t get away
I lie but i know today will be the same
If i don’t change

★ verse 3 ★
Always a complex and difficult person
Always deem to be bad because i was heard cursin’
Now i got something worse than a curse next to a merlin
I’m hurlin’ and burnin’
My guts are turnin’
I was supposed to be searchin’ and learnin’
And earnin’ respect but then it turns into regret
Always get called annoyin’
Maybe she don’t love me because i’m ugly
Baby why are you avoidin’ me
I’m beggin’ to my knees please atleast like me
Am i wrapped in camo, is this rambo or spike lee
Bite me
Tightly i want you to hug me
It’s not the funny don’t call me fugly
I’d rather be pugsley than you for you to not touch me
Or maybe i’m not deservin’
I think i deserve it but i probably can catch a verdict
While i’m hurtin’
It feels like in her life, i’m just a burden or a barrier
That can’t carry her to victory and no trickey, i thought this
Delivery would eventually repeat it’s history
Don’t know if i’ll ever get out of this misery
Or i’ll give myself another injury intentionally
Attend to me
I love her but she don’t wanna show it back
No, i don’t need no (oh) to throw it back
Don’t need to show your crack
I know you ain’t all of that
Shoutin’ out girls in songs is crazy
Bloutin’ out stuff for girls to date me

★ outro ★
(lover boy can’t love lover girl without pain co-existing
Because if he did, he would change and show his instincts )
(lover boy can’t love lover girl without pain co-existing
Because if he did, he would change and show his instincts )
(lover boy can’t love lover girl without pain co-existing
Because if he did, he would change and show his instincts )
(lover boy can’t love lover girl without pain co-existing
Because if he did, he would change and show his-)