John Anthony (Rap) - Survivor's Guilt

★ intro ★
Yeah
It's like starting over
Fresh start

★ verse 1 ★
Yeah
This no rhyme i feel, it's my soul in chains
Survivor's guilt, so i know these results ain't gonna change
I keep it outta target but still it loads and aims
Farther that i go, i'm still getting scoped in the closest range
This weight on my shoulders, i overcame
This bar is way too heavy for y'all to just hold the same
My legs are triggered to keep on going through growing pains
Feels like i'm just biting this bullet without no novocaine
All this drama's driving me so insane
So what if i spit a flow and just go and poke your name
So what if i get emotional and just show my rage
No one can unfold all these notions that would control my brain
Yeah
See i don't hope for fame
I hope to fail so i when i make it y'all will know my name
I'm selfish for me so all these walls i won't go and break
Put up all these fences, i'll show you all of these holes i made, yeah
This ain't a poker game
So if your hand isn't raised, there's nothing more to say
These girls ask for respect but they dress to show they legs, ass and tits
Might throw some one's in the air like roman reigns
I'm on that tribal chief shit 'cause all these hoes the same
Just know they never pinnin' me down like a bowling lane
We can't be hooked so if we fuck, i'm not your coat to hang
Head inside the clouds so you know i'm always be soaked in rain
Yeah

★ verse 2 ★
Uh
This the beginning of something amazing
Like so amazing my haters facial expression changing
Survivor's guilt, y'all really don't understand the meaning
So many bodies i put to rest, you would think i was dreaming
They tell me anthony's always complaining
Always relating to shit, nobody knows what he saying
That 2020 version of me was sorta dangerous
If i take like half of the shit i say on my older tapes
And try to place 'em here today, i bet you i start losing ratings
They say my shits too complicating, eminem i'm chasing
Which is funny 'cause though that's a topic that y'all debating
Half of y'all just walk in my shadow, talk about being shady
And though it's crazy, all of them tracks that i've been dissing lately
It's made me into this bigger villain that's now awakenin'
My lyrics electrify or have all your eyebrows raising
All these people i murdered with ink, you would think i was painting
Yeah, aye
But even though it all, i'm embracing
All of this hate that i know i be facing
Even when i put you in a coffin by your grave, it's
Never gonna change 'cause i caused you this pain, but
I can't never seem to walk all away and
Double entendre, the killer and savor
It's survivors guilt 'cause i'm the only one remaining
Say it