16RAHEEM - Spiritual War

★ verse 1 ★

Said what happened to the real
Whatever happened to the real, they all in jail or dead
I don't wanna see her face, tell her mail the bag
Really trust you if i ever let you see me bled
Ptsd really pray but i might need the meds
This pain all be building up until i let it loose
Every time i let them in, all they did is fled
Ain't no valentine's day but i've been seeing red
Don't give a fuck bout who be with me, i won't even beg
I was riding for my bro, his bike ain't have a peg
They don't make em how they made us, everybody fluke
When i changed, don't be mad cause i was staying true
Should've seen it coming, i knew everybody fu
If i leave, this shit a fall, i know i'm the glue
You can't live with all them lies when you feel the truth
Step on anyone in front of me if they try contest
Know you envious, no you don't wanna see me blessed

★ chorus ★

I don't need fake loving i'm cool
What i've been through would haunt you too
I've been battling, losing the groove
You can't speak, you ain't been in my shoes
Look at my battles, i pick and i choose
Tell me why i'm the one that they use
They left me, i was feeling abused
They left me, i was feeling confused
On these beats, i be rapping the blues
In my feelings, i'm stacking the blues
Wanna be happy but lacking the juice
The real ones, most pain be happening to
I'm the goat when i'm back in the booth
They say they him but they lacking the proof
It's a war in my head i can't lose
Hurt my spirit, it gave me a bruise

★ verse 2 ★

I see the light, it's hard to make it, yeah i'm well aware
You gave advice but i won't take it cause you never cared
I can see it in your eyes, you're really hella scared
I've been going through some pain that i can barely bear
Fight myself, i look up in the mirror
Lot of money i put down the drain
I got regrets, drive myself insane
What the music for? it's for the pain
Why you make promises you knew that you could never keep
I hear chaos in my head, i can't even sleep
In the quiet of the night, i pray for inner peace
I hear voices of everybody who doubted me
I hear yelling from everybody who put me down
I see faces of real ones i can't find around
I need escape from this life so i might leave the town
But shit be deeper, no vacation that can save me now

★ chorus ★

I don't need fake loving i'm cool
What i've been through would haunt you too
I've been battling, losing the groove
You can't speak, you ain't been in my shoes
Look at my battles, i pick and i choose
Tell me why i'm the one that they use
They left me, i was feeling abused
They left me, i was feeling confused
On these beats, i be rapping the blues
In my feelings, i'm stacking the blues
Wanna be happy but lacking the juice
The real ones, most pain be happening to
I'm the goat when i'm back in the booth
They say they him but they lacking the proof
It's a war in my head i can't lose
Hurt my spirit, it gave me a bruise