YCK - The Void

★ verse 1 ★
Why’d you go and do that? cause we’ve, been wanting you back
You showed up with no kids and a stranger who was your new man
You left in a hurry somewhere that you had to be
You were only in your thirties but full of such apathy
Place to place, what happens with an absent father figure
Now your sons will have to live their lives without a mother since you’re
Gone, i wish you hadn’t done it after all
Not like it matters, i should have replied to you, that’s my fault
It was late september on an unassuming day
I can still remember how we couldn’t soothe that pain
And then december came around, that christmas hit us even harder
Unlike anything i’d felt, we missed your aura’s fleeing ardor
Now every night, i make a list what i’ll do in the morning
That’s because of you, you told us that you did that as restoring
Order to your life, cause' given your upbringing
Not surprised always an episode away from just sinking

★ chorus ★
Wait, i wrote no alibi
Indecisive, have to lie
Serenity is still unfound
I constantly will disavow
Wait, i wrote no alibi
Indecisive, have to lie
Serenity is still unfound
I constantly will disavow
Forgive me while i commit
This horrible injustice
I’ve suffered, yes i do admit
And you’ll just have to trust this
Listed the alternatives
But none will cover everything
Have this much here left to give
Keep me in mind now when you sing

★ verse 2 ★
A life has been taken but i won’t be taking mine
The end result is the same, so i can just wait in line
Persist indefinitely then succumb to natural causes
Do not console me when you don’t know what an actual loss is
Don’t mistake my steady silence for a lack of grief
If i had sent a signal, would you send one back to me?
Words that i regret, and words that i didn’t mean
I was just upset you relapsed and were no longer clean
If only you had stuck around to finish up your sleeves
Maybe then we’d go out drinking for a moment of reprieve
Misbehaved and fought the cops, arrested in the street
You’d left the house around 11 then our job had been complete
48 hours and you would send an apology
Sometimes i miss those nights when you’d show up right after calling me
Memories will occupy the void that can’t be filled
I’ll try to speak up here on out, we can’t avoid what can’t be killed

★ chorus ★
Wait, i wrote no alibi
Indecisive, have to lie
Serenity is still unfound
I constantly will disavow
Wait, i wrote no alibi
Indecisive, have to lie
Serenity is still unfound
I constantly will disavow
Forgive me while i commit
This horrible injustice
I’ve suffered, yes i do admit
And you’ll just have to trust this
Listed the alternatives
But none will cover everything
Have this much here left to give
Keep me in mind now when you sing