Vegas Bill - Black Ink Always Fades Away

Verse:
You can find me slow walking in the rain
Pain running off my face to the drain
I don’t think i’m gonna live to see tomorrow’s grace
So i place myself in the darkest space
The back of mind i can’t escape
So i let my tears out on this page
But i don’t it’ll keep me out my grave
I replaced my smile with a frown
I wear wear my hair down
Keep myself in the dark like i’m living underground
I don’t want no one around
I can feel my head pound
From the sound of my heart beat starting to slow down
You want the truth
I wanna be with my dad
I wanna hug my brother and not feel as bad
As i do when i wake up
Ain’t much left that i’m made of
Numb from the cold inside
At least i tried
I can never be happy without being reminded
That i’m a fucking failure in my own eyes
Tapped out in my mind
Stars fall every night
Cuz they ain’t so bright to me
I don’t bleed from the cuts no more
At war in my head but it feels like a chore
To even try to get up so i stay on the floor
What’s a life worth living that you pay for
And this voice in my head don’t shut up
Everyone around me telling me to nut up
But a man can only hold so much on his back
And the worlds on mine like i’m atlas
At this point, i’m about to put it all down
Every night i just wanna blow my brains out
I can state how i cry myself to sleep every night
And how i’ve given up hope on my own fucking life
You won’t see it on my face, in my body
I won’t show it
But i’m holding back tears every second
Any moment
I can leave my life behind and to hell i’m probably going
But it can’t be any worse than every day i hit my lowest
And to my family, i’m sorry that it came this way
But behind a microphone is the only place i feel safe
I don’t got a put a mask on around my face
And run away from a plague that i call being fake
If fate aligns i could see another day
I won’t wait up like i didn’t pay
But like the ink in my arm and the pen on my paper
Black ink always fades away, i'll fade away