Savi Kaboo - Love is an Illusion

I'm in love with an illusion
Cuz the you i had in front of me
Was so fucking confusing

I've known you for years
And don't know you at all
Cuz you changed
To the point
Of being unrecognizable

It's typical
You being as loving as you can
Telling me how cool i am
But when the fun is over
You don't really give a damn, damn

I wanted us to have a happy ending
Since its never gonna happen
Guess i'll have to keep pretending

I wait for you to say something
Although its never the right thing

It's so upsetting
Every time a moment passes
Without thoughts of you
My mind reminds me
That i'm never forgetting

The good times we had
Back in the beginning
When we first started hanging
And i thought that it would last

My mind keeps trying to
Relive that past

Every second
I scream your name in my head
Why can't i just forget it?

You're all i see
When i close my eyes
And i wanna die
With you there by my side

How did i fall this hard this fast?
I mean i know every little thing about you
I wish i never had even asked

It's a vicious cycle
Every chapter in this book
Has the same fucking title

Time flies
Seems like your mind
Never gets older though
It's colder this time
And i'm surprised
To not have seen you grow
Flowers in your mind
Like the flowers you wear
Head to toe

And i was never really this
Disappointed though
To see someone leave
And to be sure
That you lied to me

You fucked me up
Got me writing songs for you
In the back of my best friends truck
Trying to keep my fucking head up
But my head's in the clouds
And i can't get up

I should have never let it get this far
Now here i am
Wish i could say that here we are

I guess i'm addicted
To the pain you inflict on me
Trusted you too quickly

You're all i see
When i close my eyes
And i wanna die
With you there by my side

And how did i fall this hard this fast?
I mean i know
Every little thing about you
I wish i had never even asked

I'm just
Trapped in your cage
I wanna be free
You make this so hard
When it could be so easy

My conscious mind
Took way too long to grasp
It's way too late for me
To leave you in the past

My mind puts up a fight
To let you go
But the part of me
That i just can't control
Will never wanna be alone