MARKIA - TRU INTENTIONS

I question myself more than you questioned me
Now its affecting my heath more than you'd ever see
True intentions i'm still paying the prices for
But when its all said and done what am i fighting for
I misunderstood friendship and loyalty
That led to fights over track splits and royalties
Disagreeing led to all my bothers leaving
Still carrying the scars and could never stop the bleeding
This artist thing is overrated
Shared wins with a team who never celebrated
Last track on my last album i said we made it
Back tracking i'm past damaged, the feeling faded
Medicated, just to keep me numb to it
Not arguing decisions when they come to it
Its only by grace the way i got here
And its only by fate the way you not here

Is it too late for me?
Your mind made up, you said
Its too late for me
And i'm all out of time
Its too late for me
That's to your discretion
I'm still learning lessons
With these true intentions

They say an enemy of your enemy can be friends
Now i've created more clicks than i intend
Squad goals of hostiles
I was the common ground now the path got pot holes
Bottled up anger, pent up aggression
Wrongs on both sides neither one is confessing
No telling, too focused on the brand
I'd still spend a few grand to be you best man but
I can only play the hand i'm dealt
If you decide to walk you made those plans yourself
Been felt these emotions never asked for help
Now its burnt thru my body like some cancer cells
Now i stay parked in the driveway
Walk in a room and look at everyone sideways
Living these hurt is the worst type of mind state
True intentions still is what i try make

Is it too late for me?
Your mind made up, you said
Its too late for me
And i'm all out of time
Its too late for me
That's to your discretion
I'm still learning lessons
With these true intentions

You said only truth can set me free
Maybe sharing my truth wasn't best for me
Sat down with that man and i told him all
Made mistakes with his wife yes i owned them all
And he forgave me, that's his protocol
He said the strongest of men are prone to fall
Be strong enough to deal with repercussions
Cause time will go past and they'll be bringing up discussions like
You say i did the right thing to let it out
But i haven't been at peace and the guilt isn't better now
You said god has got my future crafted
Even though its been four years nobody moving past it
Can't stand it every time you bring it up
I said it to his face to so damn it i've said enough
Trying to move forward when the pressure ain't letting up
Still waiting for my time that everybody has said is up
The fire burning out i see the light is dimming
While the ones that preach the most be the ones least forgiving
Who am i kidding? when will i learn my lesson
Cause the road to destruction is paved with true intentions

Is it too late for me?
Your mind made up, you said
Its too late for me
And i'm all out of time
Its too late for me
That's to your discretion
I'm still learning lessons
With these true intentions