Alan T Charly - Somedays I Wanna Kill My Mind
I do always be counting
How long till i lose my vision?
I'm running out of words, can't you see?
Cause i'm happy
I think i'm happy
I do always be doubting
How long till the floor gives away?
Somedays, i wanna kill my mind
Cause all i want is to be happy
Verse 1
In my skin and maybe find
A room where i can fit in
Sometimes life gets too hard
And i wanna hit the brakes
I wanna hit the brakes
But i gotta stay awake
Got so much to celebrate
I tend to forget
I tend to forget
But i'm glad we met
Bridge
I'm at the deep end (deep end)
And it feels so right
I'll miss you, my friend (my friend)
So, please don't leave me
I'm at the deep end (deep end)
And it feels so right
I'll miss you, my friend
Cause i'm happy
You make me happy
Chorus
I do always be counting
How long till i lose my vision?
I'm running out of words, can't you see?
Cause i'm happy
I think i'm happy
I do always be doubting
How long till the floor gives away?
Somedays, i wanna kill my mind
Cause all i want is to be happy
Verse 2
If i gotta think that i'm happy then maybe i'm not
On top of this plot of problems and mistakes, so (so)
Old they could rot
And mind's a throne that needs a spot
My best friend for good memories
Worst enemy (me)
For the rest of the ops
Somedays i wanna kill it
Boom! get it shot
I guess it thought that i forgot
Though it's behind a door and it's locked
But that time i over thought
It was her that you lost
Or are you me?
This gets confusing
All i know is i'm slowly proving that the way we do things is killing us bloody slowly
And write in bullet proof ink
So you can not erase it
With all your weapons, thoughts or fears or 50 westerns
Are you kidding?
I've known you my entire life
How i go from imagination
To everyday another crisis
From celebrations now you act like a virus
Ya kept me waiting enough
Minds always come back to bite us, yea
Chorus
I do always be counting
How long till i lose my vision?
I'm running out of words, can't you see?
Cause i'm happy
I think i'm happy
I do always be doubting
How long till the floor gives away?
Somedays, i wanna kill my mind
Cause all i want is to be happy
Outro
Sometimes my mind likes to pretend
That we're only friends
In the end that's the reason that we'll end
Isn't that ironic?
Some days i wanna kill my mind?
How about all the time?
How about all the time?
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Biography
His musical style tends to lean heavily towards the genre of lo-fi hip-hop with the usage of warm samples coupled with a more mainstream trap production of drums and the bass. He possesses quite a vast vocal range and has a soulful vocal delivery with a hint of sadness. His lyrics tend to touch upon topics of isolation, mental health issues, and suicidal ideation; and he views songwriting as a form of catharsis.