Rachie - That's Why I Gave Up On Music

I’m suddenly taken back to that time
When i waited for you underneath that blue sky
Passing by me in an instant
Slipping from the depths of my imagination
Hey, can somebody tell me what’ll happen next?
Say, tell me how to make it go on just another day
Looking right into your eyes
As i walk away from you one last time

I’m suddenly taken back to that time
All the summers who would bore me out of my mind
Didn’t i quit playing piano?
Out of habit, tapping on my desk to play the notes
Hey, can somebody tell me what i’m gonna do?
“hey, anything besides music should be okay”
Everything will be okay

If you took my heart and drew
A single note just straight on through
No, it wouldn’t disappear, believe me
Whatever i do, it just won’t disappear
It’s still right here

But i’ve got it wrong again
I don’t understand
I don’t really care, though
Not about music, or truth, or the world, or this life i hold, i don’t really care, no!
Seeing things in black or white isn’t right, it’s just an excuse, right?
One thing’s for sure, though
Everything is your fault

I’m suddenly taken back to that time
Growing old was the only thing on my mind
Knowing that someday i would die was like a stab in the chest, though i never understood why
“hey, do you know what you’ll be doing one day?”
Passing by the years, i knew what i would do one day
I’d be doing nothing at all

All your positivity ignites a hatred deep in me
Knowing i’ll never be happy
Knowing that i’ll never be enough, can’t you see?
It haunts my every single waking dream

But i know you know i’m right
Though we’re different, we’re humans deep inside
But without love, or salvation, or kindness, or comfort, though, is it really life? no!
Crying when the radio plays a sappy note is lame, but this i know
One thing’s for sure, though
Everything is your fault

I’ve tried, but i still don’t understand why
Why is it we have to fight to live our own life?
Why i can’t live off doing the one thing i like?
I don’t care if my lyrics aren’t quite right
I don’t really care, no

‘cause i think i’ve got it right
Yeah, i think i’ve got it right
Yeah, i know i’ve got it right

But i’ve got it wrong again
I don’t understand
I don’t really care though
Not about humans, or truth, or the world, or this life i hold, i don’t really care, no!
Never giving a reply, just philosophic lines, it's just an excuse, right?
One thing's for sure, though
Everything is your fault!

Even i had dreams long, long ago
Now it doesn’t feel the same as it did before
I’ve told you time and time again
It didn’t really matter if nothing came of it, you know
You do know, i know you know!
Now i can’t do it anymore

So now you know why...

So now you know why i don’t do music anymore