Cavasoul - I'm either numb or i feel way too much

I’m either numb or i feel way too much
I’ve come to terms who i am and how it’s just my luck
I always hated change i hate it worse involving breaking up
When i can feel i gotta front
I’m always acting tough
I’m missing all the days with not a worry in the world
Cause now i’m in a daze just tryna make some sense of it
As soon as i climb out i fall into a deeper pit of darkness
Leaving me to wonder if i never found my way out
Would i be missed

When i open up my eyes
All i see and all i feel is leading to demise
The emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep mе up at night
The constant question what it means it got mе looking to the skies like
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Why do i feel like this
Anxiety has got a hold on me it’s got a tight grip
My fist striking the concrete while on night shift
So many people but i still don’t know where i fit
I don’t wanna work a normal job
I got dreams i could reach if i carry on
I have days when i feel like i could be on top
But then most of the other days i hate every single song
When i open up my eyes
All i see and all i feel is leading to demise
The emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
The constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
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Why do good people have to go through bad things
Why do people like you more when you have a little fame
Why do people have advice for you when they are not the same
Why can i not explain the reason that i have this pain
I don’t know if it’s cause and effect
I don’t know if it’s something that i’m bound with to my death
All i know is that half the time i feel like i am dead
And the other half anticipate for when it comes again

When i open up my eyes
All i see and all i feel is leading to demise
The emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
The constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
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