Ensemble No one would notice if anyone vanished If students left the pack For death or insignificance With no sign of coming back No one would notice if anyone vanished The body undeterred Enough resounding footsteps That one fewer’s never heard No one would notice if i ever vanished A casualty of pride But once you’ve lost it all What happens on the other side? What's on the other side of failure? What happens aftеr the fall? What kind of life is left to livе in If you couldn't make the cut after all? What's on the other side of failure? What happens when you start to lose your grip? Your whole life’s been balanced on a mountain of talents Never knowing what awaits you when you slip
You stand at the edge Ask "what happens down there?" But no one has answers to show You fight for the edge You're so young, and so scared You cling to the devil you know
But when you hit the ground Peel yourself off the floor You look up and see you survived You stagger around You start to explore Your old friends pretend that you died
On the other side of failure A breath of fresh air Of knowing where you're going You're the only one who cares On the other side of failure You remember to be kind You start mending broken bridges And escape from your own mind Beatrix (spoken) A year later, i was working at a local newspaper, pushing papers and fetching coffee. it's not the new york times, but the people in my section really care about what i write. and my name is always up front, on every word i pen - no longer a ghost writer Besides, if i worked further away, i wouldn't be able to see my girlfriend on the weekends
Portia (spoken) I got kicked from the ardess daily staff. apparently, publishing an unauthorized independent issue that condemns the administration is... what was the word? 'insubordination of the highest degree?' (beatrix laughs) So i started my own student newspaper! we can only print a handful at a time, and we don't have a real office yet, or a big fancy endowment- but we get to ask questions we're interested in. interview protestors. grill the administration. write about things that’re actually important
Beatrix You hold on so tight Think you might be content Once you earn one more silly award And maybe you might With your energy spent But you'll never see love as its own reward
Portia You can fight for the prize Be independent and tough Stand out from the others, it's true
Beatrix/portia But instead in your eyes I can see i’m enough I will always be so proud of you On the other side of failure A breath of fresh air Of falling asleep on sun-dappled sheets Knowing tomorrow you'll still be there On the other side of failure Is a place we’ll build for two No haunted halls or archways Just a room to share with you
Ensemble A word to the wise: Sometimes the only true rest Is looking beyond what you thought was success A word to the wise: When your chances are through You can let go of their expectations of you A word to the wise: It’s not worth it to wait For the next recognition to prove that you’re great If you’ve died to forgive, or lived to forget You can see those around you as more than a threat A word to the wise: There’s a whole life outside!
Quincy (spoken) A year later- i took a gap year. after everything that happened. never made it to graduation. i went to stay with my aunt and her wife. i help them run their bookshop. i transferred to another college, and i'm finishing up my degree there in the fall (a pause) I like it here. i read a lot. write a little bit. not papers, but stories, poems, observations. i'm not as good as vincent was. but maybe someday i will be I found one of their journals, the other day, in the bottom of my suitcase from ardess? it still smells like them- like oranges and charcoal and just a bit like blood (they begin to read) Quincy martin. philosophy major. the first time they kissed me, they cupped my face in their hands. gently, like i was something they thought could break. like a nestling they peeled off the ground. i didn’t understand why And then i discovered quincy’s body and mine fit. we moved in together in a summer so hot it felt like we stuck, kissing until we could melt slowly into the others’ skin. quincy makes breakfasts and i make dinners. i wake up earlier on tuesdays to pack them a lunch. we sleep with my head on his chest And then i understood. if quincy is warm and precious and fragile, i am all these things as well. we are the twin chambers of a minnow’s heart
Quincy (spoken) The first time they kissed me, it was easy. like unlocking a new part of my mind
Quincy/vincent (spoken) Like they’d been there all along
Quincy I never got caught Never felt enough pain For the part of you i couldn’t be (they offer vincent the symbol of self-harm the saints use earlier, probably a bandage) So as penitents ought I'll give wax, bone or vein Whatever takes this guilt away from me!
(vincent hugs them)
Quincy On the other side of failure A breath of fresh air
Quincy/vincent A life of new beginnings That feels wrong without you there
Quincy On the other side of failure It gets easier to see Quincy/vincent Good and bad, guilt and forgiveness You will always be a part of me
Quincy (taking vincent’s hands) You will always be a part of-- Vincent I will always be so proud of you
Ensemble On the other side… On the other side... On the other side... (3x)
Elliot Valentine Lee, Mel Hornyak - There's a House JÓzef Past the mile five bridge Down to dead end gulch There’s a house with no locks on the door JÓzef/hao Past the mile five bridge Down to dead end gulch
Elliot Valentine Lee, Mel Hornyak - Montana Joey The kind of saturated sky That stays the same from spring to fall In the calendar hung on your wall Counting down the days Until montana The kind of guy that
Elliot Valentine Lee, Mel Hornyak - Your Face JÓzef You go to bed at midnight Hao On some nights you snore It reminds me i don’t have to live alone (hao settles down by the windowsill.) JÓzef You
Elliot Valentine Lee, Mel Hornyak - Good Enough Anthony Try not to wish that i’d just stayed home in bed Try to ignore guys talking over my head Choke down a chaser, pretending to text Make sure my lock screen crops out my