Phora - Myself Again

★ chorus ★
Look, i don't wanna feel numb no more (no more)
I don't wanna feel numb no more (no more)
I just wanna be myself, i just wanna be myself again
I don't wanna feel numb no more (no more)
I don't wanna feel numb no more (no more)
I just wanna be myself, i just wanna be myself again, yeah

★ verse ★
I know my mom worry 'bout me, it's been hard to handle
I feel the devil everywhere, it's followin' my shadow
Between myself and fightin' family, it's too much to battle
Hard to trust most people in l.a. 'cause all these people shallow
Everywhere i go, i feel a cloud on me
Rainin' down on me, i just wanna do good but no one's proud of me
Fuck, wish a fеw people stuck around for me
I just feel if god еxists, he's probably lookin' down on me (damn)
Stabbed in the back by the people i trust
Ever seen someone for who they were and it made you disgusted?
Old friends wanna see me fail, fuck the rumors, still prevail
I would say i wish 'em well but there's a special place in hell
For people who betrayed the only ones that gave a fuck
When i lost it all, my phone stopped ringin', that should say enough
I just couldn't wait for you, couldn't stay broke for you
I'd rather my cryin' in a rolls or mercedes truck
Way i feel is nothin' new, i grew up feelin' fuckin' worthless
I was too much of a sinner, even for the churches
Felt like i was too much for my family, i was just a burden
Thing we call life, wanted to quit, tried to control the urges
But i was born into a world where it's too hard to feel
Only chances that we have was sell drugs, rob or kill
Dancin' with the devil, hard for me to see that god was real
All i ever saw was murders over pride and dollar bills
Lost all i had, no one was checkin' on me
Family fell apart, christmas was empty for me
But people start to come around when they need some money
Tried to give 'em shoes to walk in, realized they was steppin' on me
Most of my friends are buried in the dirt or in a cage
I guess i'm traumatized by life, i should be in a grave
Lights close down, fans scream when i hit the stage
But they'll never know the reason why i feel this way
★ chorus ★
Look, i don't wanna feel numb no more (no more)
I don't wanna feel numb no more (no more)
I just wanna be myself, i just wanna be myself again
I don't wanna feel numb no more (no more)
I don't wanna feel numb no more (no more)
I just wanna be myself, i just wanna be myself again

Phora, born Marco Archer, is a musician hailing from Anaheim, California. He discovered his passion for rap at a young age, recording his first track with his father at the tender age of seven. Raised in Anaheim, Phora found inspiration in both his father and the art of graffiti, which fueled his desire to pursue a career in music.

In 2011, Phora took a major step in his music career by founding his own label, Yours Truly. This move allowed him to have creative control over his music and establish his own unique sound. Despite facing challenges and obstacles along the way, Phora remained dedicated to his craft and continued to push boundaries in the music industry.

In 2015, Phora survived a stabbing and two shootings, further solidifying his resilience and determination to succeed in the face of adversity. These harrowing experiences only served to fuel his passion for music and drive him to create powerful and meaningful music that resonated with his fans.

Throughout his career, Phora has garnered a loyal following and gained recognition for his introspective lyrics and raw storytelling. His music often delves into personal struggles, relationships, and inner demons, allowing listeners to connect with his vulnerability and authenticity.

Phora's journey from a young aspiring rapper in Anaheim to a successful musician with his own label is a testament to his unwavering dedication to his craft and his ability to overcome obstacles. He continues to inspire and captivate audiences with his music, solidifying his place in the music industry as a talented and influential artist.