Shingi Mavima - Alive

Verse 1: (malcom mufunde)
I gave it my best shot; but too little, too late
Weight of the world on my shoulders, possibly you could relate
So many dreams came true; so many nightmares too
I seen with my own eyes just what nights may do
Then saw the light, but the horror stayed in my mind
I got homies i balled with just the night ‘fore they died
Survivor guilt; feels like the survivor killed
My mama said no use crying over milk that’s spilled
She 55, i ain’t lived even half of her life
But at fifteen, i already thought i wouldn’t survive
Up to 25, man, i’m 26 yеars now
With any luck, i’ll prolly live to see my big man proud
Of my accomplishments; prolly buy some wheels for thе man
I ain’t saying it’ll happen, it’s just the will of man
In case i win by a nose and life hands me the victory
It’s either that or i’m taking myself out of my misery
I worked my socks off just to not off myself
So many pesticides i keep at the top of my shelf
So many nights i spent going through hell with my demons
On the edge of a precipice with nothing to cling on
It’s time to clean up my act and take a positive stand
Do everything my other me told me i can’t
‘cause i been losing the plot and losing sight
Losing touch, losing track, and losing my mind
My dreams died on the vine and came back as regrets
The green skipped a generation; i’m the one in the red
Hot and bothered, like my mom was in a way
Taking care of two sons who weren’t grateful for a day
She waited with bated breath for the day that i’d grow
Less embarrassed that she didn’t capture infinite dough
For them playstations, mansions, lambos and stuff
My worst rue is that i never thanked her enough
Hook: (malcom mufunde)
Life taught me that we aren’t alive to be happy
So we just lie we’re all happy to be alive
I just wanna feel alive even when i ain’t happy
But i think i’d feel happy if i wasn’t alive
Life taught me that we aren’t alive to be happy
So we just lie we’re all happy to be alive
I just wanna feel alive even when i ain’t happy
But i think i’d feel happy if i wasn’t alive

Verse 2: (shingi mavima)
See i can understand why brother’s so mad
Rip to the friends and the lovers we had
Ain’t no love in the city of the broken hearted
Ain't no life in the homes of the dear departed
I’m so heated, and the verse just barely started
Take me back to harare, one roomed apartment
Single mother on the grind, holding it down
Ndiine mukaka pamhuno dreaming of holding the crown
Asi iyoyi raramo ingori kurauone
Everything’s a facade, tipei mabhodhoro tisone
Been feeling unproductive, tied fallopian tubes
I had a dream last night painted dystopian views
Held a gun to my head, self-shot made it splatter
Just as i finished my journey, standing on top of a ladder
Only problem was i put it up against the wrong building
Thats the fallacy of dreams we’ve been chasing since children
While they look up to my life, wanna copy and paste it
I got to bed each night, wondering if i wasted it
This ain't woe is me, i’ve made peace with my mortality
No longer see the point, so my ending just don’t bother me
I used to be a beast, i was eating, wasn’t no stopping me
If i could rewind them years, i’d be handing out apologies
Used to be be romantic, dreamt of falling in love
Now i’m just looking for someone who’s gon be pulling the plug
Went from wanting all the glory in my story dont forget me
To wanting to be dead by the morning if you let me
Aint nobody alive whose life is better coz they met me
So if you take me out all i ask you lay me gently