SFE Tav - Not a song just venting

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You could at least call and say you proud
Made my first song about you, look at me now
Seen you in target the other day with the reason that you ain’t mine
But i love you so i ain’t mad at you for the way that bring me down
Old friends callin’ talkin’ bout “tav, i ain’t know you was famous”
I’m talkin’ bout killin’ in my songs, i’m still the family baby
Old pics on snap when i reflect, i wanna call her name in
It’s been 4 years since you was mine, guess you can call me crazy
‘cause i’m still waiting for the promises you made me
I don’t even know why you hate me
All i needed was your love, you could’ve saved me
I noticed way before things changed, you was changing
I felt like i did what i was supposed to do
I put my pride to the side and put my all in you
I tried way too many times to get over you
We did the same shit but i just ain’t as strong as you
Yeah, remember when you taught me it was all in my head
Bae, if that’s the truth, then why that nigga in your bed?
If i ain’t show you that i’m for you, then you would’ve never left
Everytime i try to leave i think about the things you said
You broke our promise and that broke me too
Lose feelings but then stay, that’s what we always do
Then your touch don’t feel good but we run from that truth
You ain’t gon find someone like me, it ain’t no one like you
Gon’ head and get another body
I’ll wait around, shit, someone gon’ prolly tell me bout it
You bad as hell, i just ain’t happy, it ain’t no way around it
The least you could do is bring my heart back to the way you found it
I miss my ex, whole time we was together
‘cause i wasn’t happy, but i ain’t gon’ lie, that bitch ain’t treat me better
But look, we all know how the first 2 months be feeling special
You can’t call me now, and all you did, hope you regret it
I be feeling you don’t want me, got me thinking ‘bout my other options
Force myself to eat and i can’t sleep, i just wanna call you
You feel good just like drugs, you know i do it often
I’m addicted to your lies and you ain’t never honest
Like who knows what you doin’, lord knows what you doin’
God knows i’m goin’ through it, my friends know that i feel stupid
I took a bitch to the movies and we kissed, i don’t know what i’m doing
Tried to use her to forget you but i can’t do it
We better off startin’ with someone new
It hurts to say it but i think it’s true
Look how i act and then look at you
We can barely be together in the same room
It ain’t shit that i can fix, it ain’t nun’ i can do
How many times can i fuck you out your attitude?
How many times i’m gon’ hug you when i’m mad at you?
How many times we gon’ realize that i’m bad for you?
How many times you gon’ see that i’ll chase after you?
How many times you gon’ realize what you not doin’?
How many times has that put me in a bad mood?
This can’t be the girl that i fell for, it’s just not you
Know that school callin’ me, you already know
It’s that bitch that tav can’t get over
It’s that bitch, no matter what she do, she can have my shoulder
It’s the girl way before sfe, back when i felt homeless
It’s the girl made me forget that i was even hungry
I moved to florida just for school, you still would always call me
It’s the girl that i had wanted ever since you saw me
It’s the love that i had killed, i’ll take it as a zombie