ABG Rocky - 2019

Bottling my emotions, i don’t feel like talking
When it’s drama or some gossip, then they feel like calling
I be wanting for somebody to call and check on me
But they only want a check out me
They know i got it cause i’m balling
I lost my family and lost myself up in the same year
Almost died from covid-19, they don’t know what it is here
I just came from destin, florida celebrating my soul day
9 years later, lost my bitch, i ain’t tripping, she ain’t my soulmate
But oh wait, deep down inside of me i ain’t ok
Coming home to an empty house, and i gotta start my stove late
I gotta fix my own drink, gotta fix my own plate
This bitch done really spoilеd me, man i gotta find my own way
But she done did somе fucked up shit, i done did some fucked up shit
Ain’t no way in the hell we gone keep trying to patch this fucked up
I go this way, you go that way, ain’t that what chris tucker said
But i ain’t tripping, i know i ain’t getting hurt laying alone in my bed
A part of me is hurting cause i can’t see my lil’ twin every day
Don’t bother me when she with me, i’m just trying to make sure our bond straight
When is she here it’s fun days, she gotta go back on sundays
And right before she leave, she look at me, i’m tearing up and she asks
Daddy are you ok?
Daddy are you ok?
Are you ok daddy?
Hell knaw lil’ twin i ain’t gone lie, no i ain’t ok
Cause every time you leave me i be missing you and i’m lonely
Met this lil’ chick at the store, she bought some rockystyle clothes from me
She work there and so i took it back and i noticed that her nose running
I asked her was she ok, she said hell knaw, i’m going through it all
Here go my number, if you ever wanna talk, don’t you hesitate to call
She called me the same night
Pulled up on me the same night
I’m listening to her problems, i’m like damn we got the same life
She getting through hers easily
I’m going down more deepily
I tried to hide it, she looked at me and said rocky you needing me
And i don’t wanna sleep alone, so can you please stay the night
The nightmares that i have, i don’t know what’s real, i’d probably take my life
We go to bed, she can’t sleep from all the sounds that i’m making
I’m in a cold sweat, my body shaking
So she awake me and she ask me
Baby are you ok?
Baby are you ok?
Are you ok baby?
Hell knaw lil’ shawty, i ain’t ok
I’m nervous than a bitch, like they about to read the verdict out to oj
I wanna talk to my brother booby but he locked up in prison
I wanna talk to my brother suge but his mama sick and i know that feeling
But i’m gone call him anyway, i gotta check on my mama wanda
Tried to change the tone up in my voice so my brother wouldn’t wonder
Then suge p ask me rocky are you ok?
Brother are you ok?
Are you ok rocky?
Lord knows i wanted to lie to him and tell him i’m ok
I be trying to hide my emotions from my brothers but i can’t
Suge i’m not ok
Hell knaw, i’m feeling low
I don’t wanna smoke all these cigarettes no more