Cole Hedgecoth - Peace!

Verse 1
I think sometimes my friends
Are better off without me
Without my selfishness and jealous ways
That still surround me
I often question if i ever set up boundaries
Do i live how they allow me
When my mind is getting cloudy
When i’m shouting, when i’m angry
When i’m strangely so emotional
Every time they try to change me
And my life feels so disposable
I have to ask myself am i controlled
Or i’m controlling?
Am i cold or am i growing?
Am i cole or easy-going?
Do i fold under thе pressure
That i carry on my shoulders?
Do i hold onto dеpression
Cause i never got the closure?
But they tell me that the older i get
I’ll start to notice
That my focus will slowly start to shift
To my devotion, i’m hoping
I’m hoping one day that i understand
It feels like every friend i have was purchased second hand
I know my doubts will bring me peace but i’ll be damned
So i keep on asking questions
Even though i know no answer can
Verse 2
Sometimes it takes too long for me to process
Throughout the years
I feel like i have not made any progress
Cause the habits and the hangups that i fought with
Are calling me into the ring to finish what they started
All the gossip and the rumors that i fought to disprove
I get caught up in the future and forget what to do
Been abandoned, abused
Been coerced and confused
Taken advantage and bruised
Broken, molested, misused
I was invested in you, made my bed on your truth
Told my secrets in confidence, you rejected my youth
So with this i conclude
I want to be what i choose
And just as i had assumed
You can’t have your cake and eat it too
I hear ‘em say that there’s no rest for the wicked
And there’s no rest for the weary
I guess we all ‘bout to kick it
But to my peace, i’m committed
Do whatever to get it
On a journey, i’m living
To find the joy that’s been missing
I’m finished