​conscience - ​that's about all

★ chorus ★
I really like to draw
And that's about all
I'm not the type to go conversate
Sometimes i feel like i shake when i talk
I look at my feet when i walk
And that's about all
Honestly, i ain't too happy today
And i don't expect it to change tomorrow
I go home and listen to music
My mind is abusive when sitting in silence
Try to tell mama, she quickly diffuse it and make me feel foolish
I'm looking for guidance
I turn to god, but i feel like a nuisance
I can't fully believe that he's watching
Lord, forgive me 'cause i'm only human
But i don't think i got a reply, yet
Go home and listen to music
My mind is abusive when sitting in silence
Try to tell mama, she quickly diffuse it and make me feel foolish
I'm looking for guidance
I turn to god, but i feel like a nuisance
I can't fully believe that he's watching
Lord, forgive me 'cause i'm only human
But i don't think i got a reply, yet

★ verse 1 ★
I'm in the back of the room
Sketching on pages of homework that's long overdue
Anxiety looms everywhere that i move
Like a cloud over me in a funny cartoon
"don't call on my name, don't call on my name"
Replays in my brain, i refuse
Afraid of their judgment, but it's said and done with
And i try to say i don't care, but it's far from the truth
Don't see a point in this schooling
I'm labeled as stupid, so what is the use?
My biggest of dreams, i'm told, are just foolish
The harder to reach, the more that i hear that i'm not very tall
So, i listen to music
The truth is it helps hearing someone who's somewhat like you
But this pencil is my only muse
I cannot be muted when i draw–

★ skit ★
“hey! get up.”
“pick your head up. get up!”
“actually, you know what?”
“you’re up next.”
“alright, start with your name.”
“roger..”
“okay roger, tell us a little bit about yourself”

★ chorus ★
I really like to draw
And that's about all
I'm not the type to go conversate
Sometimes i feel like i shake when i talk
I look at my feet when i walk
And that's about all
Honestly, i ain't too happy today
And i don't expect it to change tomorrow
I go home and listen to music
My mind is abusive when sitting in silence
Try to tell mama, she quickly diffuse it and make me feel foolish
I'm looking for guidance
I turn to god, but i feel like a nuisance
I can't fully believe that he's watching
Lord, forgive me 'cause i'm only human
But i don't think i got a reply, yet
Go home and listen to music
My mind is abusive when sitting in silence
Try to tell mama, she quickly diffuse it and make me feel foolish
I'm looking for guidance
I turn to god, but i feel like a nuisance
I can't fully believe that he's watching
Lord, forgive me 'cause i'm only human
But i don't think i got a reply, yet

★ verse 2 ★
Saying my prayers 'fore i go to sleep
Gets kinda hard hearing mama scream
Slamming the doors 'cause daddy will leave
But 'til five in the morning they out in the street
Woke up for school, but i can't stay awake
School lunch free but can't stomach a plate
I just got home, went outside to play
And a stranger pulled up with some presents today
Said he my father, i got scared
Ran up inside, and i'm telling my mom
"some guy came to talk to me right over there
And gave me these toys i got in my arms"
She leaned in down on one knee
And told me the truth of it all
Pulled out a box of old memories
With pictures, poems, and told me he liked to– draw