Millicow - Scraps

★ verse 1 ★
Two weeks of scraps with some stitches and glue
You'll hear the magic when my mix tape hits you
Verses attach into mystical music
Perfect my madness the flow state is true
A thousand buried splinters hurts you worse than a curvy blade
That's how i'm carried into my personal hurricane
Lose count of every syllable and worthless word that i say
The doubt is raining heavy like the perfect storm hip hooray
I love to feel thunder and lightning and pouring rain
Just don't put me under a sky of white snowy paste
With cold freezing weather and dry biting wind in my face
Cause nothing works better to deprive me of inner peace
Just give me the sun, and give me the rain
Just let me get burned, and wash it away
Why doesn't it hurt? fire is my name
I want nothing more just warm sunny days

★ verse 2 ★
I love to take an overdose
Of solar heroin you know
I go through most the year alone
The clouds take over sun won't show
No colors grow just bones and ghosts
So cold i'm frozen to the soul
Bipolar only through the north
Wind blowing on me losing hope
Cause i got no fat tissue
Do i look like i have issues?
I'm just fine dude i assure you
I eat like a horse in puberty
People joke oh yeah? where you
Eat at, the fucking crack barrel?
At least i'm not a stick figure
I eat a lot and exercise
It keeps me strong but not bigger
Sure i love how easy it is
But i wonder if i'm sick and
Hurting in my body i got
Purple on my bottom eyelids
Like i've got a parasite
A leech of trauma takes a bite

★ verse 3 ★
I've seen the bottom it ain't nice
When you're one step from happiness
But it's head lice and it's cat piss
And it's hoarders and psychosis
And your bed lies on the carpet
Just a pillow, blanket, mattress
Or a sofa that you surf on
But it's not in a blue ocean
It's in cat hair and in dog shit
You're in despair and you're hopeless
Life just ain't fair for us all, bitch
And your best just ain't good enough
When it's bed bugs and ciggy butts
And moldy walls and piles of junk
Where roaches crawl and life just sucks
And those with all the high end funds
Just don't give us one tiny fuck
And even when you win it's endless
Not easy living independent
The demon within isn't different
We're sinking in this twisted system
The fees and rent and bills relentless
They leave us empty, filled with sickness
They're leeches which instill resentment
They feed us shit and pills til death but

★ verse 4 ★
I just came to thank the state for saying i
Make the wage it takes to fill our
Plates and feed our faces pay the
Person that maintains our place to
Stay it breaks the bank we need some
Aid to keep us stable they don't
Care to make it fair the state just
Hates my name i swear that they're just fucked
Cause institutions are getting hard to trust
When the truth is not what they offer us
Don't know who to trust, are they all corrupt?
Only you can judge, will you hold a grudge?
No i'll just pave my way to change the pain i
Came to play and break the chains they
Gave us made of paper taped
Together weaker than a feather
Gain relief we'd never fathom
Staying weak in heaven's bottom
So i'm speaking from the heart and
Hoping people love my art and
Find relatable my hardships
Find it valuable, cathartic
Find the time to see a performance
Fans in line who say i love this
Making my career enormous
Maybe i can see this happen
Aiming high no fears i'm trapped in
Say it's a lie my ears won't listen
Say it's a waste but i can't contain it
It's try or die, won't stay complacent
Say i may fail that just makes me crave it
Play my game well i'll invade your playlist
I am not built like i'm fake and plastic
I am an alien my veins bleed music
I will not quit til the stage is habit
Still i won't quit, i was made to have this

★ verse 5 ★
I'm not hypnotized
By electronic light
Unless it's the type
With a keyboard and mic
I'm bored out of my mind
And porked out of my rind
Need more beautiful rhymes
Need more musical time
Your world is not the same as mine
My gourd that's on this lengthy spine
Is more than decoration, all right?
Ignoring it is a fatal crime
So i pour in every grain of time
Recording every phrase i write
Important that i make my life
Immortal through creative light