Millicow - Breaking Free

★ chorus ★
One foot in hell, one side in heaven
Under that spell is how i've been living
Praying for help as i fight the devil
Escaping the cell, a lifelong endeavor
Digging my spoon down into the concrete
Chipping my tooth as i chew the hard steel
Give me the truth, don't hide it cause i see
I see right through, i'll fight til my heart sleeps

★ verse 1 ★
It's the morning and i'm feeling weak
Let me snore, let me go back to sleep
It was so warm underneath the sheets
I need some more time in bed, please
Can't the war just give me a week
To restore myself and find some peace
It's the morning and i'm feeling weak
But it's so warm underneath the sheets
I have to get up, i need to eat
I gotta support my family
I have to get on my feet each week
Don't matter how badly i feel so weak
I have to get up, i need to eat
I gotta support my family
I have to get on my feet each week
Don't matter how battered and beaten i feel

★ chorus ★
One foot in hell, one side in heaven
Under that spell is how i've been living
Praying for help as i fight the devil
Escaping the cell, a lifelong endeavor
Digging my spoon down into the concrete
Chipping my tooth as i chew the hard steel
Give me the truth, don't hide it cause i see
I see right through, i'll fight til my heart sleeps

★ verse 2 ★
So am i depressed cause work's too fast?
Or am i burnt out cause i'm depressed
And i'm hiding it, and i'm fighting it
And i'm trying to trick myself to think
That i'm liking it, i'm a happy man
When i haven't been, i feel trapped again
Thinking i just wist i could laugh again
Lately i've been sick, fuck it, i admit
My free time is spent getting high frequent
Just prior to bed, to rewire my head
Only trying to prevent laying wide awake
Cause at night i'm hit, mental fires lit
Need to write some shit, maybe cry a bit
I can't lie, i'm empty inside and it's
Saying hi old friend, it's our time again
When the pipe is lit it's all right tonight
Stop rushing me, you're crushing me
Slow down, okay? i'm done with speed
From now i move at my own pace
Don't have to prove nothing to thee
It's not a competition to be
The fastest, hardest worker bee
To be honest, i'm sick of making honey
I've had enough of this, give me my money
It's been hard to keep my head up
I've worked hard to get ahead, but
Seems the world demands i give it
Even more than i can handle
I've been dark and pessimistic
These things aren't what i intended
I'm just hurt and i can't stand to
Feel the surfacing emotions
When they rear their ugly head up
And i feel like they won't let up
Am i cleaning out my shadow?
Or just spinning in a cycle?
Do i purge or simply wallow?
Have i learned to let it all go?
Is it working? i do not know
I've been full and i've been hollow

★ verse 3 ★
I have seen god, the devil i know him
They're pulling on my arms til my chest rips open
Exposing my heart to the crowd in these poems
Tearing me apart in every direction
Will i end up so broken that darkness takes over?
I have seen that happen, don't want this weight no more
How long can my hope keep my feet moving forward?
How long until i choke on my tears and keel over?
Emotional breakdowns, one after another
Suppose i've repressed them and now they're at my door
Didn't know i was stressing myself out this hard
I don't want to stay down, just keep moving forward
I have seen god, the devil i know him
They're pulling on my arms til my chest rips open
Exposing my heart to the world in these poems
Tearing me apart in every direction

★ chorus ★
One foot in hell, one side in heaven
Under that spell is how i've been living
Praying for help as i fight the devil
Escaping the cell, a lifelong endeavor
Digging my spoon down into the concrete
Chipping my tooth as i chew the hard steel
Give me the truth, don't hide it cause i see
I see right through, i'll fight til my heart sleeps
I'll fight til my heart sleeps

★ outro ★
When you are reborn
You're going to mourn
The parts of you that died
The days not enjoyed
The beauty that you missed
The struggles that you lived
When you are reborn
Just know that you'll mourn