Lil Epok - I Just Pretend

(Vers 1)
I just pretend that I'm smiling
Pretend that I'm glad
Inside I'm dying, cause I'm hurt real bad
All fed up by mistakes that I've made
Want to make a move, but I'm so god damn afraid

(Vers 2)
Always thinking of the things other people said
Like how I should kill myself, cause I'm better off dead
That nobody likes me and my life is a mistake
Some only stick around to make my heart break

(Vers 3)
They lift me up only to watch my heartache
They want me to struggle when I'm fully awakе
I cried every day, only bеgging for a break
I didn't kill myself for my family's sake

(Vers 4)
I couldn't stand it, my life was too hard to take
I just held the pain in, as I watched my tears flake
And I was begging so bad for a change
Always felt left out, always felt strange

(Vers 5)
I don't understand why you put me through all this pain
I just guess there were something to gain
Threatening me with a knife, you're homicidal
You made my life a living hell, you got me suicidal
(Outro)
It's pain, yeah life is filled with so much pain
I don't know what to say or how to feel
Cause it's all in my brain
I forgive the ones for their actions
I guess they beat me down to see my reaction
There are no harsh feelings, there is no strife
May we be friends, in another life