Ash Jetson - A Better Anthony. / the changeling.

Sat down with moms
We ended up talkin late
She said she's just happy to see me
Smilin more and walkin straight
It killed her inside
Seein me live lost in hate
The greatest way to make her proud
Was not to have my father's fate
I know she used to see his face
Inside mine
And that made me sick to my stomach
Lookin in hindsight
Further down the timeline
She saw us divide sides
Hes still on them white lines
I chose to just write rhymes
And try to make sense of my past trauma
Lacked dharma
But still tryna kill bad karma
Before it even happens
In a constant meditative state
About my thoughts and actions
Can't let worries from the past
Be a distraction from the passion
Gotta ration
Out my energy
Before there's a reaction
Too great to contain
Chernobyl level putrefaction
When i bottle things up
I can feel it just decayin
At my insides
When there's things to be said
That im not sayin
So i tell you that i love you
But i really fuckin hate it
That i think about day in
And day out, when im prayin
Or smokin
Just hopin
As i grow and im changin
If i get angry
You don't mix me and that nigga's faces
Im workin to be a better man
Every time i awaken
Not breakin under the pressure
Of what's given and taken
Tryna be here for the family
Doing my best
To make your happiness reality
And even if you can't believe
That
When you're mad at me
And it seems like definition
Of insanity
Goin around in circles
Still arguin out of vanity
Ill be the bigger man, for we
I promise, ima be a better Anthony
Even when we on different wavelengths
Blessed with the power to change things
Moms said she dont recognize her son
Like the changeling
A lot of things do
But my love for you
Is never changing

Im workin to be the best i can
Every time i awaken
Id break under the pressure
If your love was ever taken
And you couldn't understand or see
I tried my best
To make your happiness reality
And if you can't believe
That
When you're mad at me
And its definition of insanity
Fallin into them cycles
Arguin out of vanity
Ill be the bigger man, for we
I promise, im a better Anthony

Even when we on different wavelengths
Blessed with the power to change things
Moms said she dont recognize her son
Like the changeling
A lot of things do
But my love for you
Is never changing
Even when we on different wavelengths
Blessed with the power to change things
Moms said she dont recognize her son
Like the changeling
A lot of things do
But my love for you
Is never changing

Im workin to be the best i can
Every time i awaken
Id break under the pressure
If your love was ever taken
And you couldn't understand or see
I tried my best
To make your happiness reality
And if you can't believe
That
When you're mad at me
And its definition of insanity
Fallin into them cycles
Arguin out of vanity
Ill be the bigger man, for we
I promise, im a better Anthony