MARKIA - SILENCE

(markia)
What's the difference me and you?
I live my truth, i guess all of yall now can see the proof
Looking for some cover but can't see the roof
Pac mentality when im on the juice
Me against the world so i deserve all these audibles
Team splits, handing me these pink slips
Seems every time we battle you can only sync lips
Talking but ain't saying nothing
Hands together but ain't praying nothing
Heard a couple pastors been acting kinda backward
Talking greasy but with me they be oscar winning actors
So i light a match for you gas lighters
While i try to turn my path to a path finder
Nobody got the back of a back slider
You forgetting all ive done you got alzheimers
I'm dead to all of yall, flat liner
Dont worry about a fact finder cause
Cause my demise is the only thing you witnessing
Don't come as no surprise cause it feels like i've been giving in
Looking to the son so much i got this melanin
Cleaning out my closet and kicking out the skeletons
Been in church so long they call me veteran
But they say im sick and ain't handing me the medicine
I dont have the benefit, just these doubts overcrowd me
Now the silence is killing me loudly

(army regime)
What regime could do in five you couldn't do it in ten
I bought a gun but got revenge with just the use of a pen
I told a demon that i loved her, i won't do it again
She was fire but i refuse to let them lucifers in
Then they lied on me
Had em looking stupid when they tried to take my music
When they wishing suicide on me
I was a like a god to em, if im dead to you
Why my name kept alive through em
I survive through it, i made depression a vibe through it
The therapy sessions taught me what it was
They told me seek redemption but i did it without love
Popping percs, i wonder where was all of the bruvs
Ain't no christians praying for me so i pray with the bloods
Ima say what i want
Ive been hurting for a minute so the pain give a buzz
I could change if i want
But all the people pleasing really a dub
I keep a piece because i only feel at peace with a gun
Thinking i should twist a tree in a stump
So i dont cry about it
Kept yall secrets in my brain and never lied about it
And yall wanting me to die but my god surrounds us
And my god surrounds us
I left the building not forgetting the blueprint
Still on a mission with a militant movement
It's still a regiment, you feeling illusive
I'm still a goat but don't forget that i'm human