To RateLost in a darkness that i created
Realizin hate for the world was self-hatred
Been a problem since i kicked my way
Out my mom naked
Actions ive undertaken
The lies that ive stated
Been, lost in the past
Cold sweats when i sleep
Dreams made of broken glass
Tryna hold on to memories
But i try to remember me
And it rips through me
I feel like thats someone
That i can never be
Again
Hurt too many friends
Didn't care about anyone
When i wantеd life to end
Coulda faced it and
Had a mеssage to send
But instead
Id put up defense
When id grab a pen
Id write and write
Night and night
Tryna get to higher heights
Hidin my
Feelings
Never winnin the fight inside
Now drinkin water feels like sippin cyanide
Wonderin why others die every day
And im alive?
Survivors guilt
Like nothin i ever felt
Brain feel like its gonna melt
Thinkin over pain ive dealt
I took the heart of the first girl
That ever loved me, and broke it
After years
For a chick
That only liked me for the moment
Then she asked me to be honest
And i lied
Guess i faced my atonement
When i had to learn
What bein alone meant
Got hurt
And blamed people for not havin devotion
When i did it to myself
Guess i didn't get the notion
Of karma
What goes around comes around
Full motion
Closed my heart off
And wondered why no one was open
Family wondered why
They couldn't help with copin
Left my mom and sister
And my grandma broken
Had no hope
And couldn't see everybody hopin
Id see in myself what they saw in me
But i never could
And didn't believe
I deserved love or peace
Well shit
I got what i wanted. huh?
What you run from awake
Will leave your dreams haunted
So i stay up with cold sweats
Grippin to the memories
Fully understandin
Thats someone ill never be
Again
Wanted life to end
Now im breathin
Feelin dead
Wishin i could live again
Theres no lower
To descend
So i can only go up from here
But what you do when
You're
In the blackest hole
Seein the light people casted as an afterglow
Bein, cut into halves like a magic show
Thats what it feels like to have no hope
So
Please
Look at life while you have it so
You ain't surprised at
How fast the past can go
Dont take anything for granted, no
And in the darkest times
Have some hope
Just have some hope
Look at life while you have it so
You ain't surprised at
How fast the past can go
Dont take anything for granted, no
And in the darkest times
Have some hope
Just have some hope
Just have some hope
Have some hope
Have some hope
Just have some hope
Have some hope
Have some hope
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Ash Jetson - A Better Anthony. / the changeling.
Sat down with moms We ended up talkin late She said she's just happy to see me Smilin more and walkin straight It killed her inside Seein me live lost in hate The
Ash Jetson - Free.
Wonderin if there's really minds im freein When im still focused on mine im freein And honestly, i feel trapped So should i be spittin these raps? Will i send people down this
Ash Jetson - All along.
All along I been tryna right my wrongs Tryna find where i belong Find the power to be strong Find the will to be alive But there still might be a why That i ask
Ash Jetson - Derek.
It's been years Still haven't wrote a song Because that would mean I'd have to acknowledge i know you're gone Like, where do we go beyond? I'm hopin
Ash Jetson - Hope.
Lost in a darkness that i created Realizin hate for the world was self-hatred Been a problem since i kicked my way Out my mom naked Actions ive undertaken The lies that ive
Ash Jetson - I wanna see the future. / Carousel.
Ridin this ride called life like a carousel The world run in cycles Im startin to know em very well Seems history repeats and repairs itself Feelin the same hatred and
Ash Jetson - The role i play.
Raised as a christian But grew up an atheist Mood swings had a youngin Throwin and breakin shit Went to poppin from snortin From drinkin from blazin it Moms prayed
Ash Jetson - Portal.
I came across a portal in my dream Stepped in, met the gods And every mortal in between After a while I couldn't tell the difference Between Allah, Ra, Krishna
Ash Jetson - Metamorphosis.
Lead turn into gold on the regular See a negative as a positive And change it up Even when the hatin comes Gotta remain made of love You never know when the day is done
Ash Jetson - 3 sides to everything.
Geometric When i see these connections Past, future and present All distant reflections Self, God and the next man See nothin but resemblance 180 degree turn From