Marshal Manson - Social Anxiety

Then all i wanted was to re accept it
Now all i want is for the pain to be mended
No, all i wanted was a sense of normalcy
But i was cursed with the social anxiety

And everyone, i walked into a crowded room
I want you to forget all of the things you would normally do
And imagine you're standing here in my shoes
You're about to see things from unhealthy views

Come on, as you enter the room, you take a look around
But, when you open the door, it made a loud sound
So now every single person stops and
Turns around and looks in your facе

So now you feel out of place
Your mind starts to race it in a second
You scan еvery face to see if their body language has something to say

You make yourself start walking and pretend that you're brave
Well, at the same time, wishing this anxiety would behave
You start walking and your brain starts talking
You're walking wrong
And now you feel like every second is a couple hours long

Aw fuck, there's a girl over there
She saw that you like her hair, but you'll never stare
So you just look over there and pretend that you don't care
I hold my zippers dropping, there's nothing in my hair, look
Did you shower enough? are your clothes clean?
If i walk down the style, are they gonna smell me?
This doesn't scratch the surface of the things i go through
And i don't have a lifetime to write it down and show you
If you think that this shit is astounding, just keep in mind you ain't even sat down yet

Then all i wanted was to re accept it
Now all i want is for the pain to be mended
No, all i wanted was a sense of normalcy
But i was cursed with the social anxiety

Scenario two, somebody likes you, which is a pretty good start
'cause that's more than you can do
She'll think you're obsessed now
You don't look at her enough
She's got more choices than men
She don't really like you

Have you seen your fucking face?
Of course she likes you
She's been staring all day
You're a pretty scorny guy, but she thinks you're gay
And the behavior caused by thinking this way makes her think you're insane
She starts to lose interest because she thinks you're weird

Your mind's a vehicle that you don't know how to steer
And the same thing happens year after year until you hate your peers and they hate that you're here
Soon enough, the only thing you really crave is fear and a handful of screams you hear, bitch
Then all i wanted was to re accept it
Now all i want is for the pain to be mended
No, all i wanted was a sense of normalcy
But i was cursed with the social anxiety

Now at first glance it's going to sound like simple shyness
But there's so much more to this
It's really about how we all function
Sometimes we can't function
Everyday settings
It sounds like shyness when you talk about social anxiety disorder, but there's so much more to it
Man is the only animal that blushes or needs to or needs to or needs to or needs