NVR SPRTD - Mystery

They wonder why i keep everything a secret
Cause if i don’t then they’re probably gonna leak it
They been calling me the mystery man
I don’t wanna speak too soon and ruin the plan
I don’t wanna go too fast like i’m a van
All i can do is keep on trusting the lamb
They want me to spit it out but listen i can’t
Now they been tryna guess but i don’t wanna tell them
Gotta be like nehemiah, focus up on the mission
Even my family getting hard to listen to
My fears are keeping me down inside the living room
Most of my downfalls are shorter like intеrludes
God is showing signs and i’m starting to conclude
That he’s gotta plan and hе is always on the move
I gotta keep praying that is what he is gonna do
I gotta take correction and i gotta go think through

I’ve been called a pharisee and i’ve been called a loser
What am i supposed to do with that criticism?
I’m supposed to learn and i’m supposed to be a new man
I’m supposed to let go and put it in god’s hands
Why am i struggling with that
Seems so easy but my flesh keeps on biting back
Really it is me but i keep making excuses for that
This is a mystery like a rabbit coming out of a hat
Huh
Jesus loves you, that’s up on my hat
Inconsistent with my love, i am a hypocrite
Every move that i make he say that i’m a bad christian
Now you know why i said i can’t even listen
I make it none of his business
I’m making my own decisions
Made a thousand dollars from it now he’s starting to get in
I know i’m supposed to forgive him but that is so hard
He taught me chase the girls and i was so on the wrong path
I’m so half and half
I can’t ever get on the right end
Shows i need jesus in every moment
Distracted for a second, everytime i will sink in
When i was young he thought i would go in prison
Everybody hated me, they made their decisions
I was taught to punch and cuss out my problems
I thought i was cool because i was getting popular
Now growing up everything i been hiding em
They think i’m innocent, but i’m really filled with sins
But i thought it was okay, cause the word i wasn’t in
Then i read the sermon on the mount
I’m a sinner no doubt
I’ve been tryna figure out
But i had a dirty mouth
I was sitting on the couch watching tv
After my big sin
Need a new beginning
Please wash me clean
Always been a mystery
I thought anger was part of my dna
Turns out i was lied to and started to do the same
The people who surrounded me were the ones who really trained
My brain and i raged, was an animal with no cage
Worst, i didn’t know jesus personally
Living criminally
Tryna get famous
And my mind was flooded with pics
How i know god, but nothing in my life is fixed?
It’s cause i didn’t know him and he didn’t know me
It’s sad to say it, my testimony
Sad part is that i’ve made it a mystery
They knew something was wrong but they just said that’s me
And that’s who i am
Trouble maker forever
Said i believed in god but i was serving the devil
They said that it’s fine cause i will still live forever
Now when i look back i always say never
Thought they were friends but they were really nevels
They wanted a kiss but it was like judas
Now looking at my old self like, “who’s this?”
Now i am changed by the holy spirit
And that’s no secret

They wonder why i keep everything a secret
Cause if i don’t then they’re probably gonna leak it
They been calling me the mystery man
I don’t wanna speak too soon and ruin the plan