TJFBTZ - Lost in Thought

★ verse 1 ★
I just thought i should apologize
Lately there been some shit that's on my mind
About how i messed up bad
My list about piranha sized
Was it 'cause of my wildness
How sometimes i wasn't serious enough
And yes i tried to be mature
But you must've not felt that way, for sure
Sure, i didn't communicate
Stayed silent, masked up, like i'm deceased
Not in the conversation, like i'm matisse
Stayed irrelevant like i'm caris
Fumbled the bag, like dennis
I preach
Only what i feel
I guess growing up wasn't an option for me
So i just stayed silent, hush

★ verse 2 ★
I saw y'all fooling around
Didn't wanna get in trouble so i just stood around
Or sat down, like i'm in a dog pound
I guess what goes around comes around
But it was me, i'm the problem
Didn't try to talk, even when there's problems
Mouth stayed shut even if i could solve 'em
My paranoia kept me from maintaining 'em
Friends i mean, i see, what you think, who inspired me?
Through the lows and the highs, they'd always be there
Now i'm alone, but hey these pills might help
No, i wouldn't do that i said
What's the other option then, kill myself?
I contemplated
But donda saved me

★ bridge ★
It's my fault
It's my fault
But

★ verse 3 ★
It's your fault, you fooled me
Couldn't understand, you saying that's on me?
Fuck your grown up shit, you tryna kill me?
Ignoring my presence, is you on weed?
Not just you, everyone just shut up to me
Sometimes i thought you would kill
You were like a changed person, i couldn't reach
You were so stubborn, i couldn't please
You were different, as far as i can see
Hanging out with the wrong people, acting different i see
Stopped talking to me, like i'm deceased
Not even a conversation, like i'm matisse
Good but irrelevant, like i'm dennis
I preach
Only about the problem at hand
I guess growing up wasn't an option for you
So i better stay silent, hush

★ bridge ★
Can't deny i feel lonely
But i'm better off myself

★ outro ★
Something changed, something changed about you
Something changed, something changed, something changed about you
Something changed, something changed about you
Something changed, something changed about you
Something changed, something changed about you
Something changed, something changed about you
Something changed
Something changed about you