ETCH (Rap) - Mostly Sober

Baby please don't
Act like you're sorry
I need so much more
Than your pretty little lies

Had to kill what left inside
I would will you out existence
But you'd find a way to rise

Had to push you to the side
Bout a half a million times
Show me peace beyond this gloom

You know what it cost me?
(i wish you did)
Don't say that it's a lost cause
(it's all for them)
Is this really what you wanted?
With your affection laying broken on the vacant walls

No i wasn't ready for that type of fall
I was certain you would take the time to save me from it all
Oh come on
It shouldn't be that hard
It shouldn't be that dark
I shouldn't tear apart

I envy what you rеnt, not what you have or who you hold
You play temporary pleasurеs, i invest until i grow
It's a pity that you're comfortably complacent with a hoe
I can't change you so i'll leave you out frame and in the snow

I've been starring at this phone
Till my fingertips are froze
Till i'm lying half awake but mostly sober and alone

You cannot not redeem her
Like your forgetten clothes
Jaded, complicated ways of trynna let it go

Put the pain all in a box and let it rot
Slowly-slowly forget faces i don't like to meet a lot
Know exactly how it'd look, if i told you what i thought
I'm just thankful for the stupidly ungrateful
Way you watch

Tell me if you think i skewed the plot, you're disposable
Like give me something more than all your assets put it portable
You missed the shot went orbital
These rules are not enforceable
Even though i'll be the one that's screaming out

Damn, those bullet wounds were paper cuts in retrospect, i disinfect
Been on another level, was no indirect lil disrespect
I only had to disconnect, then redirect off internet
There's peace in independence, give a damn about your innocence

Just give one good reason promise that is all i need
I called you a demon but i know it's how you feed
You would give me butterflies i stare until they leave
Indirect but within reach
Like the way i was

Fixated on your body
How you play both sides of naughty
How you tell me that you love me then you turn around and shot me

Now i get it, yeah i copy
Can't forget the things you taught me
Can't forget the peaceful moments interrupted by somebody less

Now the ship has set its sail but i am nauseous of the sea
Every time it play out tragic, how you manage to succeed?
Can't contain it, cannot banish
You put spells on more than me
Is it posion or disease?

I've been starring at this phone
Till my fingertips are froze
Till i'm lying half awake but mostly sober and alone

You cannot redeem her
Like your forgetten clothes
Jaded, complicated ways of trynna let it go