Joseph A.A. - ​static ​noise

★ verse one ★
I feel like my whole world’s spinning out of control
I’m not sure what my so-called friends see anymore
I just started college, give it time and i’ll fail
‘cause it seems like my life’s a game of heads or tails

I don’t know why people expect so much from me
Even in my own mind, i set the bar to infinity
And i just can’t compete
It’s just like they say, you’re your own worst enemy

★ chorus ★
And i’ve tried, i’ve tried, i’ve tried to be the best for so long
But it’s so unattainable and i’m doing it all wrong
Another thing to hang up on my failed again wall
Take your seats, you're watching the world’s greatest downfall

And i’d give, i’d give, i’d give to be someone’s number one choice
But i’m sitting on the sidelines while they’re tuning out my voice
Another thing to pity about the guy who brings the joy
But i’m tired of listening to this endless static noise

★ verse two ★
I’ve tried out for every show up on the big screen
They tell me that i’m great but i’m just not what they need
And the music execs that all reach out to me
They just leave
And i tell everyone that i’m doing alright
But internally, my thoughts are tearing me alive
And i put on my armor, ‘cause i’m ready to fight
But it’s an uphill battle to survive

And i look in the mirror and see everything i hate
‘cause dysmorphia’s ruined and psyched out my brain
And it’s hard to to be somewhere i don’t feel right
And there’s only like 2 shirts i actually like

★ chorus ★
'cause i’ve tried, i’ve tried, i’ve tried to be the best for so long
But it’s so unattainable and i’m doing it all wrong
Another thing to hang up on my failed again wall
Take your seats, you're watching the world’s greatest downfall

And i’d give, i’d give, i’d give to be someone’s number one choice
But i’m sitting on the sidelines while they’re tuning out my voice
Another thing to pity about the guy who brings the joy
But i’m tired of listening to this endless static noise

★ bridge ★
And two days of the week, i feel invincible
But the other five of them, i wish i was invisible
And i try to put the voice back up on the shelf
But it’s hard when i compare myself to everyone else

★ chorus ★
And i’ve tried, i’ve tried, i’ve tried to be the best for so long
But it’s so unattainable and i’m doing it all wrong
Another thing to hang up on my failed again wall
Take your seats, you're watching the world’s greatest downfall

And i’d give, i’d give, i’d give to be someone’s number one choice
But i’m sitting on the sidelines while they’re tuning out my voice
Another thing to pity about the guy who brings the joy
But i’m tired of listening to this endless static noise